zerox81

Finally i find her (i think the one)... she was my friend, she was like my confident, she knows me, she trust me.
And now, i do the same for her... after a long long search, the answer was so close, right at the other side of my screen, after 2 years being very good friends she was there.
The only thing i got in my mind is to make her happy as possible, and pray that she keep making me very happy too.

Happiness is everything if you think about it... is the way to afront life.

is it ok to runaway from problems?.... isn't it just the same as "avoid the problems" only written in different way?? ... personally i prefer to see this way. I saw the opportunity of: stop being used by that chick, not to listen when she say to me so happy "i finally find someone to love" and forget her, stop seeing her.. and a long list.... isn't that just being practical???

But noooo... she said that i'm running away, she says that i'm looking for the fast exit. She want me to keep suffering... that is how i see it. She said "i don't want to lose you, and that message you wrote to me -i'm tired to be your goddamn pilot- won't work 'cause i won't let you go so easy."

Don't know what to do, really... just don't want to be mean to her, but i'm tired to feel this way. Anyway.... i think something come up when the times is right...

For the moment.. god bye Monik

sometimes when you're down, when you're tired, when you're sad.... when you're hurt... for some reason, i think there's an inner force that make you get up, it's your motivation in life, and for most people... well, VERY positive people, that's enough... and next morning they're ok.

but, what happens when that inner force is gonne... or let's put it this way, who makes grow that force, who maintains it in your heart, is the reason why you're down.....

today, i'm in my room a little bored but ok. I start to think how it happend, how i'm ok now if some weeks ago i felt like ... well you can imagine... very very very sad ... .

the same awful night when "my inner force" left me, i received a call from a friend, and asked me if i can give her a ride to her work, she's only 18 so don't get any funny ideas... The point is that for me, she is the funniest girl on earth... so, every morning at 6:45AM i waited for her at the bus stop. and on the way to our work she make me laugh like crazy... suddenly in a few days sharing time with her i realize that i feel better now, much better, maybe without her it could take some more (much more) time to get up from that situation... i tell her she is my angel.. every one of us have a soulmate and apears in the right moment, like an angel...

you may think that i was drowning on a glass of water, but... for people like me, be with someone i love is the only reason to get up the next morning... don't know why...

anyway... think gonna play a videogame now...

Almost two weeks ago, was a very very very dissapointing day... all that time lost, all that friendship lost with that girl... don't really know what to think...

Anyway, i know i'm not a poet, but this was the only way i can try to get up, so i write this -> zerox81.deviantart.com/art/i-r… (i think is a poem) so i hope you like it.

My inspiration? ... well i was watching her profile -> flutterings.deviantart.com/ while listening to Coldplay, so i came up with the idea...

Thanks Flutterings!